well in the year 2007 i started dating this guy named travis. i had terribly hurt him and i wish that there was some way that i could make that up to him... but the thing is that he will not allow me to talk to him touch him be friends with him or even hug him... thats how bad i have hurt him..... i understand what i did to him was wrong and i am not going to give out any more details about what happened then that... i just wish that i could turn back time and make sure that what i did to him didn't happen... and if i could believe you me i would... i have over and over cried myself to sleep not wanting to wake up the next day knowing that i will have to go through out my day with out him.... i have spent many sleepless nights thinking on how to make this up to him to make him see that i really am sorry and that i really care for him and want to be with him but i don't think he will understand... i have tried asking him and he says no because it hurts too much but the thing is that i have not been able to tell him how i really feel because he has chosen not to talk to me or even acknoledge that i am there... or maybe he does and i just don't see it... but all i know is that each time i see him and look into his eyes i see the hurt and pain he is going through and i am the one that caused it all and knowing that i can not fix it makes me want to kill myself... i don't think that i can live another day with out him... so please help... please send me your advise on how to talk to him and get him to listen to what i have to say and understand.

i beg of you please it is tearing me up inside knowing that i did this to him and i can't fix it.